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To:

The Love of My Life who wasnt mine to love in the first place

How I wish I can pick up the phone dial your number and juz talk and talk, whine and whine and then listen to you ridiculing all my worries and my qualms coz thats what made me happy. How I wish I can end my day, having dinner with you, coffee with you, drive around with you and listen to you laugh at my blunders and my daily bimbotic outburst coz thats what made me smile.

You dun allow me to wallow in self pity. You WERE a meanie so that you can be kind. You dun give in easily and allowED me the joys of coming up with nonsense to persuade you. You dun agree juz to please. You gainED control..not by force....through your logic and your sensibility. There is no simplicity in your words, each with adorable irritating and annoying hidden messages which MADE me wanna shower you with kisses even though u deservED extreme physical pain. You GOT away with calling me names coz you made them affectionate in your own ways. You sparkED interest in me for most things, right from starwars to politics! You WERE supportive without making it obvious. You dishED out compliments at the most unexpected tyme making them more meaningful and stived for. You instigatED jealousy in me minus my anger coz your eyes and your actions somehow wierdly comforts me. Even at your lowest, you drew me in, you lost control but stayed in control, you were haunted yet you were the one haunting.

After all this while, after all the frustrationS, after all the disappointmentS, after all the unseen tearS and unseen painS...you who disappeared with ease, you who turned your back without regret, you who left without resistance...YOU are still the one whom I wish to hear and see, coz you were the one who made me happy at the end of my tiring and mundane days. You were the one who made it all seem worthwhile....

With love,

Jubiez