Welcoming the unwelcomed

Its desirable because its the end
When it has made its claim,
No one can no longer question you
No one can no longer demand from you
No one can no longer expects from you

Its desirable because its seems peaceful
When it has made its claim,
No pains in the world can be felt by you
No scream of others can be heard by you
No form of torture can be experienced by you

Somedays, it is welcome
Other days, it is feared
Somehow, nowadays, my heart anticipates it
As I no longer see the beauty nor the purpose
Of the life that I am living right now